I went through many pictures from last year lately and all the memories connected to them because change finally came which made last year very special. My life was turned upside down. The narrative I used to know was turned around and in the words of Kate Winslet in “The Holiday”: “I became the leading lady of my own story.” At least when it comes to love.
Most of you know that long ago I chose to be happy in my singleness. I chose to live life to the fullest because I am a complete person. I did not allow my relationship status to influence my calling, my purpose and my dreams. At the same time I have realized over the last two years that something needed to change and change was in the air but I could not figure out how or what.
Then change finally came
To quote John Steinbeck again,
Change comes like a little wind that ruffles the curtains at dawn, and it comes like the stealthy perfume of wildflowers hidden in the grass.
Change finally came so sudden so unexpected and with such surprise that it took me a while to adapt to this new situation. It took me months to let go of old beliefs and patterns and allow those walls, which I unknowingly built to break down.
For a while, there I even felt like I was letting my single friends down.
All this to say; I had a lot to work through because dating in your 30s when you have been single for so long is no small thing. I will talk about his more in the coming weeks.
This is also the reason why I did not go public on social media with this. Sometimes you just want to keep things to yourself for a little while because they are too precious to share with everyone yet.
Am I still single? Yes I am. I am single and dating. Does that change anything about this blog? No absolutely not because this blog has always been about all the different seasons in life.
Here is to a new season. Here is to new adventures and everything in between.
Much love
Ramona
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