Today is about encouraging you to make the hard decision and stick with it.
The past six months I have looked back on decisions I have made which brought me to where I am today. I already mentioned this on my birthday and I knew I wanted to share one of those stories with you today.
When I was 20 years old, I got into a very bad relationship where I pushed all my friends and family away. I started drifting away from all the things I believed in and grew up with. Because I am such an all or nothing kind of person, I focused completely on that without realizing the damage it did to me. When I look back, there are regrets and I do not even recognize the person I was back then. I had no dreams. My writing was dark. I lost myself.
However, something beautiful happened. I still had people who believed in me and prayed for me.
After months and months of me drifting farther and farther away, I had a conversation with a friend who did not judge me for my actions but simply reminded me of who I am. By the amazing grace of God, I was able to not only make the hard decision to break off the relationship but to stick with it and never look back.
Make the hard decision and stick with it
It took all my courage and all my strength to do it but I did it and after a long night of talking and talking and crying, I left and fell into bed exhausted. But it was not quite over yet. Two weeks later, we met one more time, there was one moment that almost caused me to go back into the relationship, and it took all I had within me to turn around and walk away. That was when it was really over. I still had a long journey of healing in front of me.
This one decision started a journey of healing and learning to forgive myself (which was the hardest) and not only finding who I used to be but also finding the person, I want to be. It took time. It took a lot of work but I would not be here today living the life I live had it not been for this one decision and all the decision that followed.
I am telling you this story because I want to encourage you with a few things in the season you are in. Maybe you do find yourself in a place where you need to make a change, break off a relationship or get out of a situation.
Can I encourage you to…
Find a friend to help you through it and hold you accountable to your decision.
Stick with your decision even if you are tempted to go back. Sometimes we want to go back because in a way we have become comfortable there. The person you are meant to be might only be one decision away from you.
Allow the process and the journey you are about to embark on. It might not be a walk in the park but it will be worth it.
I know you can do it. I know you have strength left in you. One more thing: God sees you as his beautiful creation and he has a beautiful plan for your life.